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Story/Art © 2017 Clay

229 "Hard to sell yourself"

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Published March 21, 2015 52 Comments

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  1. Winnie Shears-KendallWinnie Shears-Kendall says

    March 21, 2015 at 7:04 am

    my biggest dilemma right now.. :'(

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  2. Natália GuimarãesNatália Guimarães says

    March 21, 2015 at 7:05 am

    🙁

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  3. Tytti SaloTytti Salo says

    March 21, 2015 at 7:06 am

    You couldn’t said it better.

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    • Ryan RowlandRyan Rowland says

      March 21, 2015 at 8:22 am

      YOU could have said it better, however. ^_^

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      • Lirazel says

        April 26, 2015 at 6:59 pm

        Wow…. Way to be an asshole.

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    • Tytti SaloTytti Salo says

      March 21, 2015 at 9:56 am

      O.o Did I made a typo? I’m sorry. English isn’t my first language.

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      • redkirk says

        April 16, 2015 at 5:25 pm

        That’s alright. Most of us with English as a first language don’t do well with the language either.

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  4. Stefan RöhlStefan Röhl says

    March 21, 2015 at 7:06 am

    *sigh*

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  5. Derek BlakelyDerek Blakely says

    March 21, 2015 at 7:07 am

    It’s worse when you look at your life, and wonder what you’ve done that’s made any impact on people.

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    • Fang says

      October 29, 2015 at 12:22 am

      Or if you HAVE had a major impact on theirs (and their entire family), why are those which were “business become friends”, backing away at your darkest hour – when you helped create some of their brightest?

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  6. Amber BrownAmber Brown says

    March 21, 2015 at 7:11 am

    I’m having that issue with trying to sound employable….

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    • Ki says

      April 4, 2017 at 7:56 am

      Same here. So many months and still no job.

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  7. pbjoiner says

    March 21, 2015 at 7:11 am

    Yes, It is thus. I’m job hunting now and just looking at the job postings triggers all my old bad habits.

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    • tildyt says

      March 21, 2015 at 8:08 am

      Same here. The career services department at my college tells me job fairs are a great way to go because the people have to meet you face to face, but I’ve never had great experience with them. Somehow it’s difficult to convince people of your worth when you have to run off to the corner every five minutes to hyperventilate and chant “It’s all going to be okay” like the last murder victim in a slasher film.

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  8. @onetrueoverlord says

    March 21, 2015 at 7:14 am

    My feelings right now http://t.co/Y0x4p2Efnb via @depressioncomix

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  9. Luca BergamascoLuca Bergamasco says

    March 21, 2015 at 7:22 am

    Spot on.

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  10. LaShaun Hardy-HarrisLaShaun Hardy-Harris says

    March 21, 2015 at 7:53 am

    The first 2, especially

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  11. Joseph Yong KimJoseph Yong Kim says

    March 21, 2015 at 8:40 am

    The worst is when someone gives a compliment and in your head you think either they’re being sarcastic or saying it out of pity.

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    • Agarax says

      March 23, 2015 at 10:57 pm

      Yes, or when they say they care about you, and you feel so worthless that you don’t believe they could possibly be telling the truth. You start trying to figure out their ulterior motive for deceiving you. That way lies paranoia.

      An important part of breaking free for me was to write down my thoughts and feelings. It wasn’t until I saw them on paper that I started to see how irrational they were.

      I think if I’d tried to draw comics about it, I would have kept running out of black ink.

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  12. Matthew JordanMatthew Jordan says

    March 21, 2015 at 8:40 am

    The mask takes everything you have to maintain on a daily basis, and leaves you empty at the end of every day. I feel for this character…

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  13. Robert HowardRobert Howard says

    March 21, 2015 at 8:41 am

    I have to wonder… have you considered doing any comics on what the initial onset of depression is like for someone who may not have been depressed before?

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    • Elvin says

      March 24, 2015 at 12:59 pm

      It’d be awesome if Clay could do that, but the insidious thing about depression is that it’s almost undetectable. It grabs you piece by piece, and you have to fight to get yourself back piece by piece too.

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    • Jenny Islander says

      March 30, 2015 at 11:24 pm

      Look up Hyperbole and a Half for a brilliant treatment of this.

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      • Fang says

        October 29, 2015 at 12:24 am

        I would but it seems like too much work. Way more than even typing this.

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  14. Jon KnellJon Knell says

    March 21, 2015 at 8:53 am

    True as always. It doesn’t get easier when you get what you’re after either. You just go from thinking you don’t deserve to get anything to waiting for your boss or lover or whomever to decide that they made a huge mistake.

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  15. Roberto MalvadoRoberto Malvado says

    March 21, 2015 at 10:14 am

    Story of my life. I can’t even write a damn cover letter to sell myself.

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  16. astrogirl says

    March 21, 2015 at 10:23 am

    Too real…
    I’m doing OK work wise though I haven’t tried for anything very challenging..

    I think I’d like to date but it doesn’t seem fair to drag someone else into dealing with me…

    My family (parents and sibling) have no choice but to be involved..but it doesn’t seem fair to expect someone else to take care of you when you Kay never have the emotional energy to reciprocate equally…

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  17. Seth Xavier FuhrmannSeth Xavier Fuhrmann says

    March 21, 2015 at 10:23 am

    True story bruh

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  18. Evan J SandersEvan J Sanders says

    March 21, 2015 at 10:25 am

    Damn. . . That’s me.

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  19. Myron KinnisonMyron Kinnison says

    March 21, 2015 at 1:18 pm

    Very true.

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  20. Johanna ManninenJohanna Manninen says

    March 21, 2015 at 1:23 pm

    Yup. Spot on. It’s really hard to sell yourself to others when you can’t even sell yourself to you. And that worthlessness opens the door for anyone to take advantage and use you. And not usually in any good way 🙁

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  21. Douglas K. says

    March 21, 2015 at 1:29 pm

    Boy, I know THAT song …

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  22. depression comixdepression comix says

    March 22, 2015 at 5:48 pm

    Commentary: I was pretty shocked to wake up and find that this comic had passed 3000 notes on Tumblr in 24 hours — it’s been quite a while since something I did caught like that. And what makes me super happy about that (no offense, Josh) is that the main character is a Person of Color, and yet so many people identify with his struggle. Thank you.

    I also identify with this a lot. One way I feel about it is relevant to what I do here. I’ve been doing webcomics since 1997, and never have I ever been able to promote what I do. Just the idea of advertising, promoting, or selling what I do gives me the shivers, since deep down I feel like everything I do is shit. This feeling derailed my previous comics but somehow I have kept this one going. But whenever anyone asks me to step up and make a book or something, the words in the last panel come to the forefront and it’s impossible for me to think that a book about depression comix or previous work would actually be something worth doing. I suck, these comics suck, there is so much better out there … why would anyone bother with this?!? I had to have my arm twisted to set up a Patreon, getting me to get beyond my self-esteem issues and set up a kickstarter or something feels like it would require a miracle. And this is just for comics, this deep feeling of worthlessness has affected my love life and work and everything. And seeing people pass by me in all these areas just proved to me that I didn’t deserve anything good ever, and I began to resent myself for failing when it was because I couldn’t even convince myself to try.

    You still reading after that blast of negativity? Wow. But this got over 3000 notes so quickly so it’s not just me thankfully. Thank you for telling me it’s Not Just Me.

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    • Johanna ManninenJohanna Manninen says

      March 23, 2015 at 5:59 am

      It’s Not Just You, or Just Me, or Just Any of Us struggling with this. What we should remember (and believe, which is often the really really hard part) is that it’s the illness talking. 🙁 Sometimes, it would be so much simpler to just have a broken leg or something.
      Thank you for the incredibly insightful stories and your art, for what it’s worth, if you ever do end up making a book, I’d definitely buy it 🙂

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    • Agarax says

      March 23, 2015 at 11:31 pm

      Depressed people are often unable or unwilling to express what they are going through. You’re giving them a voice, and letting them know they’re not alone. Identifying with the characters and situations in your comics helps them see that their illness is something that afflicts many people, that it’s not due to some personal failing on their part, and that recovery is possible. It also helps those who haven’t experienced depression to understand it better.

      I’ve read all 229 of the comics so far, and I’ve learned something from every single one of them. Had Depression Comix had been available 25 years ago, I might have sought treatment sooner, and saved myself thousands of days of Hell.

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    • Alan says

      April 6, 2015 at 9:42 am

      I found this comic while I was in a pretty bad place. I can’t remember how now, I’ve managed to forget a lot of that period.

      These days, I’m mostly through the other side of my depression, and some of that is down to your words and doodles. It’s helped me know I’m not alone, it helped me get help when I needed it, and I’ve used it on more than one occasion to explain to non-depressed people what it’s like.

      On top of that, your drawing is ace! Really well observed, and with a fantastic sense of style.

      You might not feel like your work isn’t good enough. It is.

      Thank you for every page.

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  23. Madeleine says

    March 24, 2015 at 12:34 am

    This feeling is just so paralyzing at times …

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  24. Nena says

    March 25, 2015 at 5:11 am

    We have to do self-appraisals at work this month. The thought of starting mine is crippling.

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  25. @essapk says

    March 25, 2015 at 6:50 pm

    #comic Selling yourself | Depression Comix – http://t.co/p6KRJ7Lpfi

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  26. @ashuping says

    March 27, 2015 at 11:28 pm

    been feeling this way lately http://t.co/iPqPDstpBc and this one: http://t.co/sWbHLbDbVR

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  27. Blake Stacey (@blakestacey) says

    March 31, 2015 at 9:59 am

    I think my best bet would be to use my CV as my dating-site profile http://t.co/20mR8GglV9

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  28. @stewnami says

    March 31, 2015 at 6:59 pm

    This comic sums up my days:

    229 http://t.co/MNOkGMstdm

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  29. @Bram_Burka says

    April 2, 2015 at 1:26 am

    http://t.co/oN4tKEc1Dx

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  30. @KotoElessar says

    April 14, 2015 at 5:21 pm

    229 | depression comix http://t.co/715HUrdgiM

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  31. angelaa875 says

    May 9, 2015 at 5:19 am

    Hits home…

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  32. @PorraSilvoca says

    May 14, 2015 at 9:53 am

    http://t.co/mkRH6NnRDB !!!!!!!!!!

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  33. @zeeshanha says

    July 11, 2015 at 9:27 am

    @RobotMare http://t.co/Qcx8vVjcjn @depressioncomix

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  34. @basedlisafrank says

    July 22, 2015 at 9:46 am

    229 http://t.co/QsSDpUe0X4 via @depressioncomix

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  35. @Pholostan says

    October 22, 2015 at 6:05 am

    229 https://t.co/UI8UGrOLtd via @depressioncomix

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  36. Raid Zero everythin (@Pholostan) says

    October 22, 2015 at 6:12 am

    It’s like I’m a character in a play. A theatre. Such a fraud. Dishonest. False. Terrible.

    Great comic, thanks.

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  37. yblehS (@speesbag) says

    November 3, 2015 at 3:43 am

    Selling yourself https://t.co/FDvHGgigsy via @depressioncomix

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